2008 Tarakan Youth Mission - Part 1

I did went to other country before, that is to Singapore but just one half day.Now, this is the first time I'm going to mission and to another country for a week and the first time leading 2 staffs and 8 youths to Mission.

I have some doubt before this, I was thinking why God always choose me to do something that I never did before. The understanding is like a blind man force to lead those who are not blind and some of the blinds. And another kind of understanding is I have to be fast to lead and learn in order to fulfill something greater in the future. In my younger days, I always prepare to lead but never a chance. But now I never prepare to lead but the chances are always called to lead.

After one and another, never stop calling (FCC -> TWU). Fears came and filled in my bottom of my heart. Fear of facing bad consequences, Fear of authority, Fear of responsibility, Fear of Losing someone, Fear of being rejected, Fear of making wrong decision, Fear of parents bad feedback. There are so much fears to overcome. People keep asking "Why I don't drive,is it because of your father's case or you caught an accident before?" all I can say is "Nope! Not at all!! Ya Ya I know I should drive, don't worry! I will, I will" and a silly smile on my face. But never dare to. This is not so me!!

Now the calling became greater. Beginning of this year, I suggested to have youth mission because I know it's good for the young people and me. We can learn more and I can learn more from the leader who lead us but who knows it has been approved in SEPT and the leader is me!! Unexpected Surprise!! I never want to be a leader and I never thought of that fast!! What?? not even some practical experience??

Obediently & some mumbling and some disagreement! But I still followed because It's good for the youth and this is the opportunity. Last time a leader said he will lead but failed to, so I don't want to miss the 2nd chance. But now it's too late to regret and say " I'm so sorry the mission trip has been cancel and we will not go unless we find a better leader!"

My problem is I feel stress! I feel no joy! After being questions by the parents and someone who is in upper level authority and the problem of changing date and I just don't know what else I've missed out! and I still need to do it no matter what. I have to lead and I will lead.

Now the exact date to mission is 22nd to 29th Nov. Hahah..Can't wait to write another testimony after the mission trip. Should be a life changing experience!

The End of 2008 youth Cell

Finally ! Youth Cell ended !! I really like my Sunday Youth Cell, its because they are all very different in personality. We choose to accept rather than to judge. You can see they are very naughty, smart, crazy, open minded & united.

Who are they? they are MARY TAN, Phoebe Pang, Yasmine Yap, Vivian & Deborah, Chong En Di, Marshall, Guo Han(future Chief), Khoo, Russell, Joshua Giam, Yong Shau Krik, Eugene Bien (missing in Action) !!

This is the group that I really enjoy being with them!! They can come to cell together and they can "Fong Fei Gei" in unity too. But luckily that's just once in my year.

During sharing time, we don teach but we discussed! we explain and we think! that's so fun! that's so different and that's not boring at all! They don like teacher, they don like supervisor, they dont like grandma but they like Relationship! And I learn that! Praise God!

Phoebe & Guo han will not be in Tawau next year! going to miss them! Phoebe is very good in Ice Breaking, her ice breakers really breaks! Never Fail! Gives us a lot of fun!! Thanks phoebe!! Be Courage girl!! We loves you!!

Guo Han can influence the cell to keep laughing or to stop talking or start crazy!! I like that! The thing is He's also a BIG bully! he always bully me in a very different ways! I got so many stuff to be laugh at " the blood of the lamb", " oh she got two boyfriends!! I saw her in Giant!!", That's not true but some cell members choose to be amaze just to have some fun!!Imagine every cell group meeting he repeated the same thing Before, Mid and After cell group. 3 times per cell!! is like eating medicine!! again and again and again!! STOP bulling me ! Im innocent!! AHHAHA!! Good to hear that he's going to study as a chief!! Not because I don like him to be around but the thing is I like to eat!! haha my father is a chinese chief!! Great!! Thanks for your entertainment Guo Han!! hope one day you will accept HIM !!

All to best for both of you!!

Even though I just got to take over this cell just two months but They have given me a great & positive memory in 2008! Thanks All!!

Blogging

Its been a long long time I didn't Blog! Seeing my youth blogging it somehow motivate me to update my blog! But I choose to blog once in a long while, reason is I'm not them. Meaning prefer to release all my emotion and the motive of blogging is very much different! Another good thing is they never know I do blog! haha oh my!! its be years ago!! haha!! I like to be secretive in times. I feel good when I have different group of friends. Friends that able to get crazy with, friends that able to seek advice, friends that able to share, friends that need a listening ear, friends that likes food, friends loves music, friends that likes yam cha, friends that is homosexual (but don touch me!!) hhaha, friends! Friends! and I like my family too!! I miss them in times. Specially this year our family events, in May my eldest brother wedding and in Sept my family reuinion in KK. It makes me feel in love by them. I hope to have more fellowship with them! I hope more time! I hope more places we can go togther. I like to hug my mom, not because i'm a baby but because to show her how much i love and care for her. Hhaha...everytime I went back, surely I will sleep beside my mom chat till late night!

Thank God for the people around me! It is very special to live in a same world but different personality. God commanded us to loves one another! I'm learning lord!! Praise God for the chances!!!!